The Road Trip of My Thoughts

The road trip of my thoughts.

Imagine a road with bunch of holes in the way, big enough for a person to fall into them, and a lot of side roads that are connected to other roads with a moving container belt. And imagine that there are tons of those roads, mingled with each other, some place so dark that one can barely see, and others so bright that one can see where the destination point is. It’s a mess. I know. This messy road is called “process”, and it’s made for “thoughts” to take.

However, it takes quite a long time for “thoughts” to start its journey, and even longer to get to the point. And honestly, it barely happens. There are few circumstances that make “thoughts” to actually walk on their foot.

1. When the journey is forced.

  When something is forced by someone, something, or even a situation, I procrastinate as long as I can and start doing it reluctantly. However, as I mentioned before, there are bunch of holes and even side roads with container belt. It’s easy for me to fall into other things which pleases me in a second.

1. When the journey is not at all forced and happened spontaneously.

When I get to choose something, and when I get to decide whether to do this or not; when I am a subject, I take enough time to observe surroundings and continue the process. However, instead of trying to figure out the proper solution for the situation, I tend to justify it and find a good reason to not call it a problem. Otherwise, I try to cooperate with the “problem”. I take a step back and you take it too kind of thing. I usually don’t try to find the solution that can change the whole situation. I try to find a coordinating point with the situation, such as using a tree to pass the hole instead of filling a hole with something to get rid of it.

1. When the journey is not at all journey and is close to evacuation.

  When my stability is threatened, or when something threats others’ stability, the process gets serious and fast. For example, if the problem is to be doubled later on unless I do it properly now, or if I’m in a group project that can affect everyone, the process will be activated the most. However, I tend to set the solution first and later try to find the right problem for that. What I mean by that is if I was given a task to think of something that can solve the problem, I try to think of past ideas that I came up with, and try to find the right reason to apply that idea at this point; doing research that can backup my ready-made solution. I’d say in most cases, the problem finding process reverses the timeline.

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